Monday, December 10, 2012

A Sweet that Can't Be Forgotten (II)

          On 28th November 2012, i took my Accounts examination, the very last exam that i will take in my highschool life. As the time keeps on ticking to the very last second of the examination, i wondered what happens next. Has it been 5 years already? Seems like it was only a few days ago that i was walking towards my school at the very first day of school in 2008 attending the Form 1 orientation. When the examination prefects announced the time has ended for our accounts exam, a lot of us cheered with joy. Went out of school feeling relief that there will be no more studying and exams AT THE MOMENT.
After this, classmates, schoolmates, tuition-mates, friends, groupies.. everyone, will go on their separate ways to achieve their dreams and goals. Will i ever see them again? How will i know their development in their life? A question that only Allah can answer and a situation where time will tell. maybe we will see them or maybe we wont. All i know is that i have no regrets in meeting all these people, knowing them, befriend them and study with them.
          My time in my highschool life is a moment and a memory i shall cherish forever. Of course i had my bad times, unfair, and times where i was at my lowest point, but in the end i'll just have to make it as a lesson to be learn. Remembering back the times i had in my highschool life. Training for Sports Day and challenging other houses to achieve victory. Running in the cross country. Train marching for either a competition or Sports Day. Attending extra classes. Going for camps. Annual dinner. Orientations. Teachers Day. Attending tuition classes and the seminars they made. Each year, our seniors left school and newcomers came in school as our juniors. Later before we know it, we have become seniors ourselves and become an example towards our juniors like how we made our seniors as an example. I will surely miss the feeling where students gather together for school assembly, Celebrate teacher's day or the aura where we all cheered for one another in sports day. 
          After all of this, i wonder.. What's Next? What do we do now? While waiting for our SPM results, surely everyone has their plans on what to do. Having part-time jobs. Taking their drivers license. Take a vacation. Ohh.. the usual.. and besides that, when not knowing what to do. Waste our time inside our home infront of the computer, television or something. But after all this, after our SPM results. I wonder what's gonna happen next. Surely a lot of people have made their plans, and some still wondering or not giving a damn of what happens next. However, i wonder if things will go out like how we hoped it to be or as planned. Maybe  it'll be better or what seems to be worse but have it's reasons in life since God has a funny way of taking away what you "think" you want and providing you with what you "REALLY" need or want. I guess that's how we call it, Hikmah as in there's a good reason for everything that happen.
          Thinking all of this, i will really miss my highschool life especially those that i got to know and befriend them along the way. One thing i must admit is that i am quite sad to know that there's a huge chance that i might not see my friends again and gather together in one place. I think i would probably miss my moment in Sir Ven's Masjid Muaz seminar the most. Being there, with people from different schools, gathered together learning, laughing, getting along together... it feels like that hall was our second home.. 8 hours of studying and not once did i felt bored and stressed in there. Even during the SPM seminar. i wouldn't mind if Sir Ven wanted to do a 12 hours a day class in that seminar. I would happily accept it. But then again, i might fell asleep eventually lol.
          All in all, i am blessed to live in this life. Knowing and getting along with everyone. Surely i will miss every single one of this. You know when you eat a candy that the taste is so sweet and you will remember the taste for a very long time? Well, same goes for my memory throughout my highschool life. A sweet memory that cannot be forgotten and i shall always cherish it.

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Shiro..




13th Dec,
A day that should have been my happy day, but it's not because of something that happened a few days ago which i could not tell. And to make my day worse my Cat, Shiro died at 2:03pm in front of my very eyes. Nothing can be done, the picture of him on that very moment never really did faded from my mind when i was in class after that. 3 hours in class and Shiro was all i could think of. My mom must have felt far more worse than me since it was she who accidentally collided with Shiro (plus, she took care of Shiro since he was just a small kitten) when she was putting her car in reverse to go outside of the garage to drive me to class. And when i got out of the house even i didn't notice whether Shiro got out of the house or not. No one noticed Shiro was below the car, plus my mom saw him inside the house before she got out of the house.
It is painful to lose something you care for, but he/she will always be in your life no matter how you try to change it, and the memories with him will always be with us.
Goodbye Shiro..
Will never forget you.


Monday, March 28, 2011

Changes

A lot has changed since i last posted anything in my blog.
Hmm.. well, might as well i start from where i stopped.

2010
So, i have got my PMR results ;
3 A's = Math, Eng , Sci
4 B's = Geo, Sej, Agama, BM
1 C = KH

Truth be told, i never really expected that my science was an A since i ussually get a C or a D for my science lol. but alhamdulillah that my results were satisfying. I have no regrets what so ever and i am happy for my friends who have great and amazing results but on the other hand i'm also a bit sad that i know some or most of them will be leaving me soon and go to boarding school especially a particular person I'm not gonna say who.

2011
2010 ended with sweet and bitter memories but mostly sweet memories at the end of the 2010.
2011 arrived bringing new challenges in life and hopefully a few more sweet memories.
School started with a 3 days orientation and then we were introduced to our new class and new homeroom teachers. I was given the class 4 Fadhil, an account course class. There were many new and also familiar faces in that class. It would be a great chance for me to get more new friends. But i have to take my chances at another class since i have requested for another class. My request was accepted and now my class is 4 Erat, a Sub science course where biology is replaced by accounts.
So far so good in class, but... aiya... Marzuki is my classmate again. lol. Anyway, as days passed, one by one of my friends were accepted to SBP and MRSM especially my favourite people, N.m Hanif, Siti Sarah and Amira Manan. So i guess, till the next time i'll meet my friends. I will sure be missing them all. The distance apart between us is nothing compare to our relationship.

Cross Country came in very early and i was totally unprepared since i was in my resting month from any workout activities.. dang.. but in the end i am satisfied with my results in the cross country. Im not in the top 15 in ranking but i can feel that my results have increased compared to last year. I'm hoping to get the top 15 next year.

The first examination have arrived and all of us in form 4 have finally feel how it is to answer the SPM format examination.... well.. maybe just.. 30% of it? Anyway, i got 5A's 2B's 1C and 1 G. If you asked me, i have never in my life get that many A's. The highest before was 3A. So yeah, I'm happy and i will try harder, i won't let my parents sacrifices for me go to waste. They have done too much for me, and I'm very grateful to them. As a son, i can only do so little to repay them for now, so i guess getting good results will have to do for now. so.. Get you lazy bump to work Haziq!!

Monday, November 15, 2010

A Sweet That Can't be Forgotten

Sunday, 14th November 2010 approximately 11:45 p.m
Monday, 15th November 2010 at 1:10 p.m

Those are the days i shall never forget..

2010... that's the year where i finally feel comfortable. A year where i feel i can fit in with my most precious friends.
Sad and Happy Momments have passed through out the year..
Sports Day, Cross - Country, PMR Trial, PMR, Hop on and Hop Off, Conlay, Bowling, Last Day of School... and the rest of my life in 2010.
I have never been so happy to be friends with you all, not a single regret i feel in meeting any one of you people. Eventhough there are harsh times and bad memories. However, that makes me the person i am today.

Last day of school ended just like that, it feels so quick that schools ends that day.

To all my friends,
I wish you all good luck next year, especially the ones who are gonna start a new life at another school in living your dreams. It pains me to see most of my friends i cherish the most will be going to another school next year but i will still cheer you guys on. You guys have meant the world to me, i don't know what happen if i never met you people.
Meeting you guys was fate, becoming your friend was a choice and i thank god for showing me this path.

Thank you to my friends who was always there for me when i needed them :

Nafis Lutfillah - You maybe a pain in da ass but ur the 1st person whom i had ever trusted the most. You have known me since form 1 and already know what i've been through the most but most of my hard times are in form 3 which Hanif knows mostly.

N.m.Hanif - I only started to know you better in 2010 after the 2nd exam, and after that we always been the best of buddies, sharing our feelings , comforting one another, annoyed others for no reason, helping each others back. Plus your the only one who knows what i have been through the most at my hardest time in 2010.

Amirul Azri - You may only know a some of my secrets but you are still one of the people who have helped me and support me in my needs.

Azim Goh - You are my brother for another mother and we annoyed each other so much.. and others.. lol. We may not hang out much often but you're still my brother from another mother!

Nasuha Salim - You may have not know me like my other best friends but i know you already find me obvious in some parts io my life. Thanks for being there when i needed someone.

Amira Manan - You're a great friend and you're the only girl who knows a lot about me than other girls. You're always there when i needed someone to talk with about my problems. And there have not been a single time.. not one tiny BIT that you have ever complain about my same old problems, instead you kept on supporting me and wished me the best. Thank you.

Aliah Umairah - You're a great girl with many special talents and have endless perseverance. You never gave up hope when life knocks you down. Keep it up girl.

Afieqah Kaz - For some odd reason you have been a great friend, thanks. Eventhough you tried to kill me and all haha lol.

Fatin Afiqah

Sri Nur Areena

Amira Najwa

Nur Shakinah Ahmad

Fadzila Hanim

Emill Zulkipli

Siti Syuhadah

Syafiqah Talib

Nur Syahidah

Liyana Menon

Khatijah Zafirah

Eza Elhanis

Aishah

Izyan

and not forgetting another person, she may not be my schoolmate but she is the only person who is my tuitionmate that im most close with.

Siti Sarah - I have hurt you and i can never forgive myself for that and i still don't know how to make it up to you. but you always fill my loneliness with a bunch of silliness and happiness at most days( or is that just me? ), and i thank you for that =)

Thank you.
And these are the Sweets That Can't be Forgotten, a taste that is so sweet that i will cherish it all =)

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Time Flies

Wow.. it's already November.
Next week will be the last week of school.
I know...wohoo no school and all.
but as for me... some how i don't want it to end.
cos i know next year i wont be seeing a few of my friends.
not to mentioned most of my friends I'm most comfortable with will soon go to a different school.
starting a new life in succeeding their life.
i know i can't stick with the same people all the time..
but.. those are the only friends I'm MOST comfortable with..
the people who i trust the most.
I wonder what happens next year.
I just hope it will be alright.
since there are still some of my friends who I'm comfortable with who will not be going to another school so. yeah.. im quiet relief to know that.
that's all there is to say but i think ima end this with a poem i make spontaneously.
(p.s i make this poem not by planned.. i juz put anything tht juz comes out in my mind)

every step, every momment, every second, time passes,
my school life this year will end next week,
soon all of this will be just mere memories,
happy and sad momments happened,
but those momment are memmories will i cherish forever,
i have no regrets in knowing you people,
thank you.

is this considered as a poem? lol

Thursday, October 14, 2010

im back kinda..

looks like im kinda no longer tht emo haziq.. or negative dude..
but now.. i got some other thing i have to do...
n tht is.. making everything right..
not to mention i've been holding a guilt in myhart tht could not go away.. until i ask forgiveness to the person.. -sigh-
but how...
the part where i always down.. was meant only for me to suffer not others..
leave me be and i'll be sure to be back to normal (normal.. odd) in a few hours

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

im sorry

i've been acting negatively for only the pass few hours..
and some of my friends are already i duno.. wanting to know what happened? worried?
pfft.. worried.. yeah right.
but thing is..
im sorry for those ppl who i have been rude too..
i nvr meant this to happen but it juz happen and i have no idea what came over me.
sorry especially to the last person i chat on yahoo.
most of my frens nvr really did read my blog.. so i dont mind.
this will probably not be the end of me being negative.. probably.. after this i will start being more.. negative duno why..