im back kinda..

looks like im kinda no longer tht emo haziq.. or negative dude..
but now.. i got some other thing i have to do...
n tht is.. making everything right..
not to mention i've been holding a guilt in myhart tht could not go away.. until i ask forgiveness to the person.. -sigh-
but how...
the part where i always down.. was meant only for me to suffer not others..
leave me be and i'll be sure to be back to normal (normal.. odd) in a few hours

im sorry

i've been acting negatively for only the pass few hours..
and some of my friends are already i duno.. wanting to know what happened? worried?
pfft.. worried.. yeah right.
but thing is..
im sorry for those ppl who i have been rude too..
i nvr meant this to happen but it juz happen and i have no idea what came over me.
sorry especially to the last person i chat on yahoo.
most of my frens nvr really did read my blog.. so i dont mind.
this will probably not be the end of me being negative.. probably.. after this i will start being more.. negative duno why..

whats happening to me?

what the hell happened to me?
i am ruining my freaking life!
am i that depressed?
13th October 2010, around 4 pm
i change for a sudden.. feeling dark.. and emoish..
and there i freaking go again!
snap it out Haziq!
whats wrong with you!?
i juz ruin my life for only less than 8 hours!
i guess its becos of my online sister.. ever since she gone worse maybe i started to think negatively..
now its more cos i juz need one more person to tell me about something tht made me gv up.
tht made me more emo.
not to mention i cant believe i juz heard a word tht i would nvr tot i heard (actually read) from a certain someone..
i probably made the persons status worse..
i got to make things right!
got to fight this freaking emoish..
but my ego wont let me.. help