It has been quite a while since i last post a topic in this blog. Many things have happened since i post my last topic.
Its already been 2 years since i have fallen to the same girl. Many sweet memories i have spent time with her, for her it might be normal but for me its always been the best day. She always made my day eventhough she did not notice it. One of the reasons I'm on a sudden hyper mode is because of her. I always said it to myself.. " there's no way I'm gonna get her " , "she's outta my league " .. i even wanted to forget her. tried several times but never succeed because she's always there when i wanted to forget her.
I always feel uncomfortable when a guy talks to her, well maybe not all.. but a certain guy talks to her. And when i got close to the guy i feel uncomfortable talking to him when the person is my very own friend. i believe i am very jealous. yes.. I'm jealous to many guys that got into a conversation with her. i guess when it comes to love you be having jealousy problems and all huh..
I know one of my friend is fond of her. And I'm pretty cool with it... kinda. And that person is also pretty much close to her. so yeah.. i tend to get jealous easily everytime he get close to her or have a normal conversation and make jokes to her. sometimes i think.. "is he the one for her and im not?" , "is he better than me? " , " im loosing her to this guy " . But not all of it is bad. cos surprisingly everytime i feel jealous or down , i get to have a conversation with her and make jokes along the way, and im pretty much sure that make my upside down world turn back up!
that's it for now.. i got lost more to type about her but that would seem weird.. its 1 am alrd .. gudnight!
