Time Flies

Wow.. it's already November.
Next week will be the last week of school.
I know...wohoo no school and all.
but as for me... some how i don't want it to end.
cos i know next year i wont be seeing a few of my friends.
not to mentioned most of my friends I'm most comfortable with will soon go to a different school.
starting a new life in succeeding their life.
i know i can't stick with the same people all the time..
but.. those are the only friends I'm MOST comfortable with..
the people who i trust the most.
I wonder what happens next year.
I just hope it will be alright.
since there are still some of my friends who I'm comfortable with who will not be going to another school so. yeah.. im quiet relief to know that.
that's all there is to say but i think ima end this with a poem i make spontaneously.
(p.s i make this poem not by planned.. i juz put anything tht juz comes out in my mind)

every step, every momment, every second, time passes,
my school life this year will end next week,
soon all of this will be just mere memories,
happy and sad momments happened,
but those momment are memmories will i cherish forever,
i have no regrets in knowing you people,
thank you.

is this considered as a poem? lol

im back kinda..

looks like im kinda no longer tht emo haziq.. or negative dude..
but now.. i got some other thing i have to do...
n tht is.. making everything right..
not to mention i've been holding a guilt in myhart tht could not go away.. until i ask forgiveness to the person.. -sigh-
but how...
the part where i always down.. was meant only for me to suffer not others..
leave me be and i'll be sure to be back to normal (normal.. odd) in a few hours

im sorry

i've been acting negatively for only the pass few hours..
and some of my friends are already i duno.. wanting to know what happened? worried?
pfft.. worried.. yeah right.
but thing is..
im sorry for those ppl who i have been rude too..
i nvr meant this to happen but it juz happen and i have no idea what came over me.
sorry especially to the last person i chat on yahoo.
most of my frens nvr really did read my blog.. so i dont mind.
this will probably not be the end of me being negative.. probably.. after this i will start being more.. negative duno why..

whats happening to me?

what the hell happened to me?
i am ruining my freaking life!
am i that depressed?
13th October 2010, around 4 pm
i change for a sudden.. feeling dark.. and emoish..
and there i freaking go again!
snap it out Haziq!
whats wrong with you!?
i juz ruin my life for only less than 8 hours!
i guess its becos of my online sister.. ever since she gone worse maybe i started to think negatively..
now its more cos i juz need one more person to tell me about something tht made me gv up.
tht made me more emo.
not to mention i cant believe i juz heard a word tht i would nvr tot i heard (actually read) from a certain someone..
i probably made the persons status worse..
i got to make things right!
got to fight this freaking emoish..
but my ego wont let me.. help

Love and Jealousy

It has been quite a while since i last post a topic in this blog. Many things have happened since i post my last topic.
Its already been 2 years since i have fallen to the same girl. Many sweet memories i have spent time with her, for her it might be normal but for me its always been the best day. She always made my day eventhough she did not notice it. One of the reasons I'm on a sudden hyper mode is because of her. I always said it to myself.. " there's no way I'm gonna get her " , "she's outta my league " .. i even wanted to forget her. tried several times but never succeed because she's always there when i wanted to forget her.
I always feel uncomfortable when a guy talks to her, well maybe not all.. but a certain guy talks to her. And when i got close to the guy i feel uncomfortable talking to him when the person is my very own friend. i believe i am very jealous. yes.. I'm jealous to many guys that got into a conversation with her. i guess when it comes to love you be having jealousy problems and all huh..
I know one of my friend is fond of her. And I'm pretty cool with it... kinda. And that person is also pretty much close to her. so yeah.. i tend to get jealous easily everytime he get close to her or have a normal conversation and make jokes to her. sometimes i think.. "is he the one for her and im not?" , "is he better than me? " , " im loosing her to this guy " . But not all of it is bad. cos surprisingly everytime i feel jealous or down , i get to have a conversation with her and make jokes along the way, and im pretty much sure that make my upside down world turn back up!
that's it for now.. i got lost more to type about her but that would seem weird.. its 1 am alrd .. gudnight!

Great Day

Today i had an exhilarated day with my family.
I finally had some quality time with my family.
We went jogging at Titiwangsa it was really fun and very enjoyable.
To bad my brother couldn't come since he got a class.
Then we went breakfast and try to have a look around at Wangsa Walk Mall for the first time.
There, i saw many shops and i saw A&W, i was surprised to see A&W since i haven't seen it in a very long time.
We checked the bowling alley and it looks nice.
My sister wanted to play but obviously everyone was tired so we should just make it a day.
My dad say maybe tomorrow we can play bowling but still not so sure yet.
After that i saw my tuition teacher who had taught me from age 9 to 12.
I was surprised and happy to see my teacher that by the looks she is fine and healthy.

My Holiday at Bukit Merah

I just got back from my holiday at Bukit Merah in Perak from 25th - 27th December.
I'm glad that this holiday is the same like last year holiday since we get to spend this holiday not just with my family but also with my cousins at my dad's side of the family.
The only different is that not everyone was here, 3 out of 7 families came..
the other 4 didn't come because i don't know why..
The trip took 4 hours and when we made it to Bukit Merah.
We stayed at a place called Bukit Merah Laketown Resort, there the place there was quiet okay.. got a few problems at the chalet at first but then it was okay.. sort of..
We took a few rest there and then took a sunset cruise trip.. the sunset was very beautiful. We also passed some island called 'Monkey Island' and some other island that i forgot the name.
We also went to a haunted valley when we were waiting for the sunset cruise to arrive at 6 : 30 p.m . I thought it was scary at first but turns out.. it wasn't that scary at all.. my cousins said that there were suppose to be people wearing ghost costumes.. but there aren't any.. i there will be only at night since my cousin went there at night.
Then we do some sightseeing.. and since its my brother's birthday (25th December)
My mom went to a shop and made a decoration plate ( i think ) and there it says
' Happy Birthday Along from Ibu dan Ayah ' it took some time to make that while making it our job is to make my brother as far as possible from the shop .. unfortunately he did came in the shop but didn't see the writing on the plate since my mom keep on dragging him here and there just to avoid him seeing it.
At night we went to a restaurant, man.. that restaurant had many mosquitoes and not normal ones .. big ones those are jungle mosquitoes it made us irritated while waiting for the food to come.. the worker there gave us um.. a.. thing where we used to put eggs at some shopping complex.. but it was burning a bit so the mosquitoes wont bother us much.
When the food came everyone was happy and as for me i eat the most .. i took 4 rounds that time my uncles and cousins were shocked to see me eat that much.
The next day went by and the 1st thing we did was to take a swim at the swimming pool , we did planned on going to the waterpark but the waterpark was expensive the only people went there was one of my uncle's family . but even so.. me and my cousins had a great time at the swimming pool. we made a human tower , me being at the top with my brother Diego and my sister and the people at the bottom are my brother and 2 of my cousins. Last time at Port Diskson we manage to make a human tower with 3 floors but this time only 2 since we don't have any small cousin since he didn't come .We also made a diving race competition, me , my brothers and 2 of my cousin, my brother won the race.
We also made a competition to see who can hold their breath longer in water and of course i was the worse i made 20 sec at the 1st round and 15 sec at the 2nd round , i wonder why i went up to the surface when i know i can hold my breath longer.. i guess i don't have much confidence, and as usual my cousin (Zafran) won the competition for holding his breath for 45 sec in the water and for both rounds. Last time he made a record of 1 min and ??sec for himself. After a swim we took a rest and straight went to ' Orang Utan Island '.
On the way there we took a picture of our self while holding a python, it was heavy and not that scary since the python was very nice because it didn't ate or bite us haha lol.
At' Orang Utan Island ' we saw a few Orang Utan and it was very interesting and enjoyable i learned a few things there like Orang Utan are like humans they can get sick in the rain and 9 months pregnancy. After that me and my family took a ' Fish spa ', i haven't had one of those since last year. Fish spa is really great the fish there eat the bacteria and the dead skins at our feet.
At night , we went to another restaurant and this time i had a competitor who is my brother Diego, I took 4 and a quarter rounds while he took i don't know but he said i won him but for me its a tie since he finished the rice in the um.. bowl.
The next day/ last day, we took a swim again but this time we make a a tag team race competition. At first i became the judge and the race starts with 2 of my cousins Zafran and Hazim and my brother and my uncle as their tag team partner. The race was canceled since my cousin Hazim couldn't swim straight giving a result he didn't tag my uncle lol, so i took Hazim's place. The race start by my brother and my uncle starting the race when. After my uncle tagged me i quickly swim as fast as i can giving the result my team won the race, but personally i think it wasn't fair since my cousin Zafran have to race 2 times with 2 different person making him more tired than me.
After a fun at the pool, we packed our bags and head home but before we reached home we have to stop by at my sister's friend house to give him is wedding present, since everyone was tired and didn't have time to eat at the ceremony my sister's friend insisted us to take some of the food there to eat at home. I enjoyed my holiday every single minute there is and i hope i can spend my next holiday with all 7 families at my fathers side of the family.