A Sweet That Can't be Forgotten

Sunday, 14th November 2010 approximately 11:45 p.m
Monday, 15th November 2010 at 1:10 p.m

Those are the days i shall never forget..

2010... that's the year where i finally feel comfortable. A year where i feel i can fit in with my most precious friends.
Sad and Happy Momments have passed through out the year..
Sports Day, Cross - Country, PMR Trial, PMR, Hop on and Hop Off, Conlay, Bowling, Last Day of School... and the rest of my life in 2010.
I have never been so happy to be friends with you all, not a single regret i feel in meeting any one of you people. Eventhough there are harsh times and bad memories. However, that makes me the person i am today.

Last day of school ended just like that, it feels so quick that schools ends that day.

To all my friends,
I wish you all good luck next year, especially the ones who are gonna start a new life at another school in living your dreams. It pains me to see most of my friends i cherish the most will be going to another school next year but i will still cheer you guys on. You guys have meant the world to me, i don't know what happen if i never met you people.
Meeting you guys was fate, becoming your friend was a choice and i thank god for showing me this path.

Thank you to my friends who was always there for me when i needed them :

Nafis Lutfillah - You maybe a pain in da ass but ur the 1st person whom i had ever trusted the most. You have known me since form 1 and already know what i've been through the most but most of my hard times are in form 3 which Hanif knows mostly.

N.m.Hanif - I only started to know you better in 2010 after the 2nd exam, and after that we always been the best of buddies, sharing our feelings , comforting one another, annoyed others for no reason, helping each others back. Plus your the only one who knows what i have been through the most at my hardest time in 2010.

Amirul Azri - You may only know a some of my secrets but you are still one of the people who have helped me and support me in my needs.

Azim Goh - You are my brother for another mother and we annoyed each other so much.. and others.. lol. We may not hang out much often but you're still my brother from another mother!

Nasuha Salim - You may have not know me like my other best friends but i know you already find me obvious in some parts io my life. Thanks for being there when i needed someone.

Amira Manan - You're a great friend and you're the only girl who knows a lot about me than other girls. You're always there when i needed someone to talk with about my problems. And there have not been a single time.. not one tiny BIT that you have ever complain about my same old problems, instead you kept on supporting me and wished me the best. Thank you.

Aliah Umairah - You're a great girl with many special talents and have endless perseverance. You never gave up hope when life knocks you down. Keep it up girl.

Afieqah Kaz - For some odd reason you have been a great friend, thanks. Eventhough you tried to kill me and all haha lol.

Fatin Afiqah

Sri Nur Areena

Amira Najwa

Nur Shakinah Ahmad

Fadzila Hanim

Emill Zulkipli

Siti Syuhadah

Syafiqah Talib

Nur Syahidah

Liyana Menon

Khatijah Zafirah

Eza Elhanis

Aishah

Izyan

and not forgetting another person, she may not be my schoolmate but she is the only person who is my tuitionmate that im most close with.

Siti Sarah - I have hurt you and i can never forgive myself for that and i still don't know how to make it up to you. but you always fill my loneliness with a bunch of silliness and happiness at most days( or is that just me? ), and i thank you for that =)

Thank you.
And these are the Sweets That Can't be Forgotten, a taste that is so sweet that i will cherish it all =)

Time Flies

Wow.. it's already November.
Next week will be the last week of school.
I know...wohoo no school and all.
but as for me... some how i don't want it to end.
cos i know next year i wont be seeing a few of my friends.
not to mentioned most of my friends I'm most comfortable with will soon go to a different school.
starting a new life in succeeding their life.
i know i can't stick with the same people all the time..
but.. those are the only friends I'm MOST comfortable with..
the people who i trust the most.
I wonder what happens next year.
I just hope it will be alright.
since there are still some of my friends who I'm comfortable with who will not be going to another school so. yeah.. im quiet relief to know that.
that's all there is to say but i think ima end this with a poem i make spontaneously.
(p.s i make this poem not by planned.. i juz put anything tht juz comes out in my mind)

every step, every momment, every second, time passes,
my school life this year will end next week,
soon all of this will be just mere memories,
happy and sad momments happened,
but those momment are memmories will i cherish forever,
i have no regrets in knowing you people,
thank you.

is this considered as a poem? lol

im back kinda..

looks like im kinda no longer tht emo haziq.. or negative dude..
but now.. i got some other thing i have to do...
n tht is.. making everything right..
not to mention i've been holding a guilt in myhart tht could not go away.. until i ask forgiveness to the person.. -sigh-
but how...
the part where i always down.. was meant only for me to suffer not others..
leave me be and i'll be sure to be back to normal (normal.. odd) in a few hours

im sorry

i've been acting negatively for only the pass few hours..
and some of my friends are already i duno.. wanting to know what happened? worried?
pfft.. worried.. yeah right.
but thing is..
im sorry for those ppl who i have been rude too..
i nvr meant this to happen but it juz happen and i have no idea what came over me.
sorry especially to the last person i chat on yahoo.
most of my frens nvr really did read my blog.. so i dont mind.
this will probably not be the end of me being negative.. probably.. after this i will start being more.. negative duno why..

whats happening to me?

what the hell happened to me?
i am ruining my freaking life!
am i that depressed?
13th October 2010, around 4 pm
i change for a sudden.. feeling dark.. and emoish..
and there i freaking go again!
snap it out Haziq!
whats wrong with you!?
i juz ruin my life for only less than 8 hours!
i guess its becos of my online sister.. ever since she gone worse maybe i started to think negatively..
now its more cos i juz need one more person to tell me about something tht made me gv up.
tht made me more emo.
not to mention i cant believe i juz heard a word tht i would nvr tot i heard (actually read) from a certain someone..
i probably made the persons status worse..
i got to make things right!
got to fight this freaking emoish..
but my ego wont let me.. help

Love and Jealousy

It has been quite a while since i last post a topic in this blog. Many things have happened since i post my last topic.
Its already been 2 years since i have fallen to the same girl. Many sweet memories i have spent time with her, for her it might be normal but for me its always been the best day. She always made my day eventhough she did not notice it. One of the reasons I'm on a sudden hyper mode is because of her. I always said it to myself.. " there's no way I'm gonna get her " , "she's outta my league " .. i even wanted to forget her. tried several times but never succeed because she's always there when i wanted to forget her.
I always feel uncomfortable when a guy talks to her, well maybe not all.. but a certain guy talks to her. And when i got close to the guy i feel uncomfortable talking to him when the person is my very own friend. i believe i am very jealous. yes.. I'm jealous to many guys that got into a conversation with her. i guess when it comes to love you be having jealousy problems and all huh..
I know one of my friend is fond of her. And I'm pretty cool with it... kinda. And that person is also pretty much close to her. so yeah.. i tend to get jealous easily everytime he get close to her or have a normal conversation and make jokes to her. sometimes i think.. "is he the one for her and im not?" , "is he better than me? " , " im loosing her to this guy " . But not all of it is bad. cos surprisingly everytime i feel jealous or down , i get to have a conversation with her and make jokes along the way, and im pretty much sure that make my upside down world turn back up!
that's it for now.. i got lost more to type about her but that would seem weird.. its 1 am alrd .. gudnight!

Great Day

Today i had an exhilarated day with my family.
I finally had some quality time with my family.
We went jogging at Titiwangsa it was really fun and very enjoyable.
To bad my brother couldn't come since he got a class.
Then we went breakfast and try to have a look around at Wangsa Walk Mall for the first time.
There, i saw many shops and i saw A&W, i was surprised to see A&W since i haven't seen it in a very long time.
We checked the bowling alley and it looks nice.
My sister wanted to play but obviously everyone was tired so we should just make it a day.
My dad say maybe tomorrow we can play bowling but still not so sure yet.
After that i saw my tuition teacher who had taught me from age 9 to 12.
I was surprised and happy to see my teacher that by the looks she is fine and healthy.